| Date: | 2012-01-17 09:49 |
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Not that I update more often than once in a blue moon anyways, but I figured I'd mention that with CFUD's big move, I've schlepped on over to Dreamwidth, at the same name - Canaa. I doubt I'll bother crossposting, on the rare occasions I do post anything, since the point of moving is to leave LJ behind, so. o7 I may drop back by occasionally to check my flist, but otherwise, I'm out.
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| Date: | 2011-12-19 22:17 |
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straight 4.0s
what
how
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| Date: | 2011-12-19 02:35 |
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My poetry teacher continues to be a total slacker, so I still don't know what I have in there, but this quarter I came away from Spanish and Music Appreciation with 4.0s. In each. Yes.
That means that in one quarter I have tripled the number of perfect grades I've received at the college level. Which, okay, Music Appreciation, not the most difficult course, especially for someone with twenty-three years of music playing music on one instrument or another under their belt. I'm more boggled that I got a 4.0 in a foreign language. I mean, it's just Spanish, which is not the world's most challenging language or anything, but still.
(And yet I still can't use the past tense, or talk about . . . pretty much anything but the weather and what I like to do and how I'm feeling and what my name is and where I live. :|a We only covered six chapters this quarter. And really, we only did half of chapter six.)
Next quarter I'm taking another quarter of Spanish, a World Prehistory course (I'm really looking forward to this! I love anthropology, and the anthro professor at my college is awesome, he's a great teacher), and "Communication Studies", which used to be Journalism 101 and gets to be a fancier name now and cover blogging as well as newspapers. (I assume, anyways.)
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As I saw somewhere else, "Any that will win me a $50 Amazon gift card."
. . . no, but really, I wouldn't call what I do celebrating so much as "anticipating and dreading in equal amounts." I'm not religious, so my celebrations, such as they are, are entirely secular. My family is Christian, so of course, when I celebrate with them, it's a celebration of Christmas in the Christian sense, but my own personal feelings and attitudes towards the celebration are based differently from theirs.
And of course I look forward to receiving presents. I already know that this year, I'm going to receive Skyrim, which is something I'm anticipating. But it's also a bit painful that I can't give much, since I'm extremely broke; I currently have about $200 to my name, if that, which is already earmarked for books for next quarter. Broke college student, that's me.
Now, I've been the sole gift-giver in my family before, during a particularly hard Christmas where I was the only one with any real disposable cash, and now it's my turn to be the one with very little money, but that doesn't make me feel any less guilty for this year. So that's part of the dreading.
The other part, however, comes from the fact that I am the child of alcoholics. Growing up, holidays were an excuse for my father to start drinking early and achieve new heights of inebriation; my mother, a recovering alcoholic and codependent, was often sullen and withdrawn, upset over having to do so much by herself (because god forbid my father help, and we children were a bit young to cook a turkey) and reacting in a typical passive-aggressive manner that I and my sister learned to imitate. Family times, difficult enough ordinarily, became excruciating.
Even now, holidays are difficult for my entire family; my father is no longer part of the picture, but that doesn't alleviate years of training that holidays exist to be berated on; that along with gifts under the tree, or presented on birthdays, come gifts of verbal abuse. That heaping helpings of turkey and mashed potatoes are garnished with liberal doses of scorn and insults.
The dread of holidays is getting better over time, which is something to celebrate in and of itself. The longer we're free of my father's poisonous influence, the more we all improve. This year will be the first time we celebrate Christmas with my new stepfather; my mother has been able to move on, put my father behind her, and trust again, which is a fantastic step. She's been so much happier!
And this year, that's what it's all about. The changes that this Christmas will be seeing, the progress we've all made. I'm back in school again and getting straight As this quarter, and I'm struggling a little but working through it instead accepting failure as natural to me and curling up in a little ball of self-hatred the way my father trained me to do. My sister and her husband bought their own home this year, a milestone they weren't sure they were going to manage so soon.
These are the things that I'm celebrating.this year. This is my 'holiday'. I'll be doing it on the 25th with my family, because that's when they celebrate their holiday, and that's okay.
Though I have to say, I wouldn't mind if they wanted to celebrate a little earlier. Want Skyrim nao plz.
(Can you tell I've been writing essays for school? I wasn't even trying, and I laid this out like an essay.)
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| Date: | 2011-09-07 18:50 |
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Okay, this has some amazing words.
(My results: 40,100)
It's obviously not a precise measurement - it guesses based on the words you do know that they suggest, but it's entertaining nonetheless.
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| Date: | 2011-05-15 17:53 |
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OKAY. Gosh, do you have any idea how hard maintaining radio silence on this has been? ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.2) fistingthing is miiiine and, btw, I adore Dragon Age II and Fenris. And have written several fics which I couldn't post here because there's CFUD people on my flist and I didn't want to tip my app hand too obviously.
They're up on my AO3 page, so I'll just link there:
Changing Boundaries
Pairing: Fenris/Male!Mage!Hawke
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Some spoilers for DAII? Male/male sex
Driven (Thinking Of You)
Pairing: Fenris/Female!Mage!Hawke, Fenris/his hand
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: male/female sexual fantasy, minor spoilers for Fenris' romance
Pledge
Pairing: Fenris/Male!Rogue!Hawke
Rating: Teen
Warnings: Spoilers for Act II of DAII
. . . like I said, I adore Fenris. XD
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| Date: | 2011-05-10 17:05 |
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The last time I did one of these was years ago, and my view of myself has shifted in several ways, so here's a new one: Johari | Nohari It's kind of funny, in a sad way, how hard it was to pick just six words on the Nohari, even though I'm 100x happier than I used to be and I can honestly say that I no longer hate myself. (So, for the record, a lot of the negative things that are gonna show up in my blind spot are actually my arena, it just wouldn't let me take them all. :p)
In actual news, I got a 100% on my first Biological Anthropology test, a 97% on my first Introduction to Sociology test, and an A- (not sure about exact %) on my first U.S. History test. Despite having obtained a new videogame just before the quarter started and having been obsessing over it for the last month. And a girl in sociology asked me to tutor her in it - apparently, the professor suggested me. Apparently, I could get paid for it, too. :|a Okay, sure. It won't even eat up any of my day that isn't already spent at the college, since she and I both have the hour between our anthropology and sociology classes free. Not sure how good I'll do at tutoring, but hey, I can try?
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| Date: | 2011-02-02 23:54 |
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Watching The Sentinel.
Seriously. Jim and Blair. How are they not canon? I mean . . . seriously. I am not 100% sure, but I do not think I have ever seen a more slashy show.
(Not including Torchwood, because Torchwood doesn't count since it's bloody well text. Text in capslock. And 72-point bold, blinking typeface. Possibly done up in a scrolling marquee to boot.)
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| Date: | 2011-01-29 08:13 |
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For some reason, when I started this fic, I thought it was going to be short. Maybe 2k words, tops.
Four thousand words later . . .
Title: And It Seems Right And I Feel (Safe)
Fandom: Blood-Smoke Series
Pairing/characters: Henry Fitzroy/Tony Foster
Warnings: NSFW, blood drinking
Summary: Post-Blood Price, Tony isn't going to feel safe again until he manages to get Henry alone for a talk.
( And It Seems Right And I Feel (Safe) )
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| Date: | 2011-01-27 12:02 |
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So last night I learned that my real name is, in addition to being a word in Spanish and Italian like I've known forever, it's also a word in Finnish. Whay does it mean?
Hi, my name is Tonsil, nice to meet you.
This amuses me so, so much.
And now it's time for the embarrassing day: Day 10 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Yeah, okay, so I like Lady GaGa's "Bad Romance." Shut up.
YouTube link
Not providing a download link for this one because it's popular enough that I don't want my Mediafire account getting swarmed by downloads. x_x
( The rest of the days )
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| Date: | 2011-01-26 21:44 |
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Oh, and a minor note: starting with the beginning of this year on out, I'm un-friendslocking my journal posts. I think I've gotten past the issues that made me lock my journal down, but since I do have a few entries that I don't want to share publically, I won't be mass unlocking my entire journal.
That is all, carry on. o/
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| Date: | 2011-01-26 13:06 |
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So today after my math test, as I'm walking past a row of classrooms, a couple of boys walk out of the room I'm passing and stop abruptly. And I hear one whisper to the other, "Damn, she's hot!"
Oh, hello ego. Haven't seen you in a while. :3
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| Date: | 2011-01-26 08:53 |
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The pronunciation/accent/regionalisms meme:
Your name and/or username:
Where you're from:
The following words: Aunt, Roof, Route, Wash, Oil, Theater, Iron, Salmon, Caramel, Fire, Water, Sure, Data, Ruin, Crayon, Toilet, New Orleans, Pecan, Both, Again, Probably, Spitting Image, Alabama, Lawyer, Coupon, Mayonnaise, Syrup, Pajamas, Caught, Orange, Coffee, direction, naturally, aluminum and herbs
What is it called when you throw toilet paper on a house?
What is the bubbly carbonated drink called?
What do you call gym shoes?
What do you say to address a group of people?
What do you call the kind of spider that has an oval-shaped body and extremely long legs?
What do you call your grandparents?
What do you call the wheeled contraption in which you carry groceries at the supermarket?
What do you call it when rain falls while the sun is shining?
What is the thing you change the TV channel with?
This was pretty fun. :|a Interesting to compare mine to vaultedthewall, who grew up not so far away from where I did.
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| Date: | 2011-01-26 00:03 |
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cpip asked me five questions! If you want to be asked questions, comment here and I'll ask your five. :)
( Cut because this got a little long! )
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| Date: | 2011-01-23 21:46 |
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Wrote this last night in about an hour. I. Am not always sure about my brain. Don't judge meee. I wanted to write something smutty and quick, because I hadn't finished a fic in months, and sure enough, I did. But it also turned out to be very . . . I think the polite way to put it would be 'gritty'.
Title: Survival, Surviving, Survived
Fandom: Blood-Smoke Series
Pairing/characters: OMC/Tony
Warnings: NSFW, prostitution
( Tony's knees were going numb )
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Looking through my email inbox, I realized that I recieved the questions for this meme like . . . over two years ago. So it's probably about time I actually do it . . .
1. There are 30 questions.
2. Next to each number, write only the name of the person who fits.
3. Answer one question with one name.
4. Don't tell the questions to anyone who isn't doing the meme.
( Looong list )
So. If anyone wants to do this one, drop me your email. XD
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| Date: | 2011-01-13 16:18 |
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Thought I'd share a picture I took with my phone from my driveway, back in December when it snowed fair bit.
Pain in the arse to drive in, but isn't it lovely?
I haven't done a piece of this meme in a while, so: Day 09 - A song from your favourite band
I don't have a favourite band. There are several bands I really love, but no clear favourite between them. So, I'll go with the one of my most-loved bands that I've listened to for the longest - Our Lady Peace. I have almost three hours worth of music by them on my computer, so picking a song isn't easy either, mind.
Okay, picking at random from the folder gets . . . "Are You Sad?"
"Your life has been so hard
Its dried up angels can't keep guard
And I'm trying to reach your hand but
I'm on fire, I never meant to
Fade . . . away."
( Rest of the lyrics )
YouTube link
Mediafire link
( The rest of the days )
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| Date: | 2011-01-04 09:37 |
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First day of class today. I'm excited! Even though it's math, I'm excited. ;) I'm just glad to be back in school.
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Well, I wasn't going to write anything in the Interesting Times timeline (WAUUUUUGH! ELI!) but then ledenyca did Furfur, and drat it, a certain Calabite in my head said he wanted a turn...
( Crazy Life )
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Read Tanya Huff's new short story collection, Relative Magic today. The story with Vree and Bannon brought back the old itch to write something for The Quartered Sea, which I adore. So, have a drabble. Rated, hmm, PG13, I suppose, post-book.
( A Damper on the Mood )
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